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World Preeclampsia Day, some interviews & an upcoming reading in Ottawa

Aoife and I chilling out in the Montfort Hospital after my second bout of postpartum pre-eclampsia/mild HELLP. Magnesium sulfate drip on tap to prevent me from having a seizure.

Today is World Preeclampsia Day which I shouldn’t let pass unnoticed. There’s much more information on the U.S. Preeclampsia Foundation’s website here about Preeclampsia Awareness month. I had postpartum preeclampsia/mild HELLP twice which is documented in Toxemia (which is the old word for preeclampsia). I chose that title specifically because of the memoir’s focus on preeclampsia but also because the book goes into my experience with mental health, with negotiations within the medical system, chronic illness, and societal expectations for the body. How we see ourselves. How we are kind or not. (A note that May is also Mental Health Awareness Month although Mental Health Awareness Week was earlier this month. Also quite relevant for multiple reasons.)

Preeclampsia Foundation Canada is the hardworking Canadian branch of the organization that has supports research and awareness. It’s possible to make a direct donation here, which I’ll do later today.

In previous years, I co-coordinated the local Ottawa Promise Walk for Preeclampsia though I’ve been stymied by health stuff since 2019 when my heart condition showed up. I was able to work on a walk in 2019 though I was very sick. And then pandemic. And then even post-pandemic, my energy crashes if I do too much. So there was a 2023 Ottawa walk but I haven’t been able to help with one since. Everything in my life screams for me to slow down when I want to speed up. It’s impossible to explain how saturating that is to my day to day. I do strongly believe that this underfunded area of research is worth supporting. A description from the Canadian Foundation’s Canada Helps page:

“Preeclampsia affects 5-8% of all pregnancies and approximately 10 million mothers will develop preeclampsia across the world each year, yet according to the World Health Organization (WHO), preeclampsia is one of the least funded areas of research. We need your help to realize our vision of a world where preeclampsia no longer threatens the lives of mothers and babies. “

There’s an illumination event tonight from coast to coast where landmarks and monuments across Canada will be illuminated in honour of World Preeclampsia Day—raising awareness for preeclampsia, HELLP syndrome, and eclampsia. Here in Ottawa, it will be the Byward Market Ottawa sign.

I’ve been lucky enough to have some recent radio and podcast interviews to link related to Toxemia.

The wonderful Susan Johnston was kind enough to have me and Brecken Hancock on CKCU’s Friday Special Blend to talk preeclampsia, writing life/motherhood, mental health, working in hybridity and Toxemia. Listen to the archived show here.

The indefatigable Hollay Ghadery was willing to chat with me on her New Book Networks podcast, for which I’m very grateful. The episode can be listened to here. I offer a 10 min reading, and we speak about the memoir, choosing form, acknowledging mortality, archival concerns in documenting, writing the body, and darkness. The podcast has such a wealth of different authors and interviews — you should check them all out.

The generous Bruce Kauffman published a recording of the November 2024 drift/line reading series organized by Wanda Praamsma featuring myself, Allison Chisholm, rob mclennan,, and musician Megan Hamilton on his CFRC Kingston’s radio show “Finding a Voice”. You can list to my reading and Megan’s performance here. And you can listen to rob and Allison here.

I’m reading again with the lovely Amanda Earl and rob mclennan in Ottawa on Sunday, June 1st (about a week from now) at the Lieutenant’s Pump. Description: “a reading sponsored by the Writers Union of Canada and the Canada Council for the Arts — three local writers share recent and forthcoming work. Doors open at 1:30pm.”

After that — I’ll be reading with rob in Dublin in July as we follow our eldest’s choir to Ireland. I’ll have a reading in Nova Scotia in November. And I would love to do a few more readings in the summer/fall. Keeping that pinprick of energy in mind — the energy, the energy, the energy.

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Upcoming Events & ThanksBe

A quick flip post of thankyous and mentions. The fall and winter fell into a mix of normal (happy but busy) return to work, chaotic family schedules, a tiny bit of travel, general tired, and a few readings. I both welcome and regret spring. The quiet of late fall and deep winter lets me hide and look out windows. It affords more grace for quiet. I think I sometimes pretend that I don’t need that or that my energy is better than it is but it’s an illusion. Rest is required.

I’ve been grateful for:

A warm reading and discussion at Octopus Books with Shannon Arntfield who was launching her debut poetry book Python Love. Thank you to Octopus Books for being such gracious hosts as well as the League of Canadian Poets and the Canada Council for their event through a National Poetry Month event.

Alt text: photo of myself and Shannon Arntfield holdering our books after the event at Octopus Books, taken from their Instagram.

This review by melanie brannagan frederiksen in the Winnipeg Free Press:
“In Toxemia (Book*hug, 176 pages, $23), Christine McNair uses medical and cultural histories, folklore and memoir to consider, specifically, preeclampsia — and more generally, the way pregnancy, chronic and acute illnesses are treated in women. McNair’s use of a prose line throughout the text seamlessly blends moves from critique and analysis to memoir to the immediacy of lived memory.

“I am now more afraid of telling doctors my history,” she writes, after struggling to get adequate care for depression while she is breastfeeding. In the penultimate poem, McNair opens with the disorienting truth: “I’ve been told my memories are not my own.””

This review by Andreina Romero, in Room magazine:
“A term describing the presence of toxins in the blood, toxemia is also an old name for pre-eclampsia. Moving between memories of her pregnancies, emergency hospital visits, and her struggles with insomnia and depression as a bookbinding apprentice, McNair weaves a narrative history as lived through her body. At its heart, her investigation is about the ways the body rebels against the violence of pregnancy, as well as the intractability of illnesses that disproportionately affect women due to underfunding and under-research.

McNair tries to make sense of the condition in different ways: lyrically through vivid descriptions of symptoms and diagnoses, and genealogically by tracing the medical history of the women in her family—a great-grandmother who died at thirty-six, and her mother, who suffered a miscarriage before McNair was born. The most striking way, however, is analytical: one table lists the overlapping symptoms of a heart attack, depression, and the third trimester of pregnancy. Another compares the symptoms of pre-eclampsia and anxiety. Through these stark juxtapositions, McNair highlights the dangers and sacrifices implicit in the bringing of life into the world.”

This upcoming event through the Speaking Crow series (via plume) in Winnipeg! Both my parents grew up in Winnipeg so it’s a chance to connect with some family when I’m there next week. Thank you to the Speaking Crow series and to the Writers Union of Canada for their support of this event through the National Public Readings Program.

Alt text: promotional information for Speaking Crow reading series event on Tuesday May 6th from 6:30 to 7:30 pm at the St. Boniface Library in Winnipeg. Admission Free.

Also grateful for another upcoming event in Ottawa with rob mclennan and Amanda Earl at the Lieutenant’s Pump in early June! More details soon but it will be good to have a chance to read again in YOW.

I’m hoping to add a few more readings in 2025. More to come. We’re travelling to Ireland in July to follow our daughter’s choir and we’re hoping to read there too if we can. I know I’ll be in Nova Scotia in the fall (dates to be finalized) and I’m hoping to have a few readings there.

In the meantime, I’m watching the garlic and rhubarb come up in the garden. I’m titrating my energy in a beaker. I’m frustrated by the soreness in my right hip. I’m trying to hold a thought. The kids are outgrowing their shoes. I can’t keep track of all the school events. I’m planning the summer. I’m fretting the books in our house. I have the normal flow of annual specialist appointments and endless med managements. I’m fretting the loss of our family doctor for myself/kids and how we’ll replace her. I fret budgets. I’m wishing I could justify buying the garden beds that I want. I’m alternating hot/cold in the constant flow of dread news. I’m looking forward to buying seedlings as the dire winter news ate my capacity for seedlings. I blank out with cozy mysteries and games full of perpetual crops. I can’t wait for all the actual perennial herbs and foods in our garden. I plan the arrival of dirt. The damn blossoms. Can’t wait.

Touring Toxemia: new book out now!

I’m excited to say that Toxemia, my hybrid poetic memoir is now out with Book*hug Press!

I’ll be doing a mini tour of sorts (details below) and am so grateful to Jay/Hazel/Reid/Gareth/Britt/Stuart/Laurie/all-all-all-all at Book*hug and to my editor Tanis MacDonald for all of the work in getting this book to press. Thanks as well too to Kate Sutherland for her use of her beautiful collage art for the cover. And to my family and friends for their never-ending support.

I’ve already had book launches in Picton, St. Catherines, Ottawa and Mississauga with forthcoming launches in Toronto, Hamilton, Kingston, Calgary, and Vancouver. I’m hoping to add a few more dates — in particular in the Maritimes and Winnipeg.

Toxemia is simultaneously a history in/of medicine, a feminist rallying cry, and a raw but scalpel-sharp work of poetry. A genre-blurring text that boldly bloodies lines between poetic and reproductive bodies, between archive and lyric, between manifesto and song, between autoethnography and free verse. A bodypoem flex.” —Sarah de Leeuw, author of Lot

“How much pressure can build in language before the story of women’s health blows apart? In Toxemia, Christine McNair tests the narrative as if it were a problem patient. She charts the events that bring her close to death several times with the skill of the most intuitive midwives and rigorous clinicians, though representation is not diagnostic. This is a beautiful etiological study.” —Elee Kraljii Gardiner, author of Trauma Head and Against Death: 35 Essays on Living

Toxemia is astonishing. It’s difficult to use positive adjectives for something so searing and widespread as toxicity in all its forms as it is portrayed in this book. But what can be said is that we need this book. We need  ‘a pattern that is only legible’ to McNair. If nothing else, in this undetermined narrative, we may read our multiple selves, our own fragilities to systemic damage and unutterable forces beyond our control.” —Madhur Anand, Governor General’s Literary Award–winning author of This Red Line Goes Straight to Your Heart

NOV 4th, TORONTO, ON: The Book*hug fall 2024 Poetry Bash! https://www.facebook.com/events/1047803116623411

NOV 7th, HAMILTON, ON: Book*hug Presents the Fall 2024 Hamilton Launch! https://www.facebook.com/share/Jdk7qWXLBsWGzF9K/

NOV 17th, KINGSTON, ON: Drift/line Reading Series, details forthcoming.

NOV 21st, CALGARY, AB: Single Onion Reading Series, details forthcoming.

FEB 2025, VANCOUVER, BC: Details forthcoming.

Hope to see some of you soon!